Vainglory and Pride
By St. John Climacus
Taken From the Ladder of Divine Ascent
On Vainglory
Some would hold that vainglory is to be distinguished from
pride, and so they give it a special place and chapter. Hence their claim that
there are eight deadly sins. But against this is the view of Gregory the
Theologian and other teachers that in fact the number is seven. I also hold this
view. After all, what pride remains in a man who has conquered vainglory The
difference is between a child and a man, between wheat and bread; for the first
is a beginning and the second an end. Therefore, as the occasion demands, let us
talk about the unholy vice of self-esteem, the beginning and completion of the
passions; and let us talk briefly, for to undertake an exhaustive discussion
would be to act like someone who inquires into the weight of the winds.
From the point of view of form, vainglory is a change of
nature, a perversion of character, a taking note of criticism. As for its
quality, it is a waste of work and sweat, a betrayal of treasure, an offspring
of unbelief, a harbinger of pride, shipwreck in port, the ant on the threshing
floor, small and yet with designs on all the fruit of one's labor. The ant waits
until the wheat is in, vainglory until the riches of excellence are gathered;
the one a thief, the other a wastrel.
The spirit of despair rejoices at the sight of increasing vice,
the spirit of vainglory at the sight of the growing treasures of virtue. The
door for the one is a multitude of wounds, while the gateway for the other is
the wealth of hard work done.
Observe vainglory. Notice how, until the very day of the burial
it rejoices in clothes, oils, servants, perfumes, and such like.
Like the sun which shines on all alike, vainglory beams on
every occupation. What I mean is this: I fast, and turn vainglorious. I stop
fasting so that I will draw no attention to myself, and I become vainglorious
over my prudence. I dress well or badly, and am vainglorious in either case. I
talk or I remain silent, and each time I am defeated. No matter how I shed this
prickly thing, a spike remains to stand up against me.
A vainglorious man is a believing idolater. Apparently honoring
God, he actually is out to please not God but men. To be a showoff is to be
vainglorious. The fast of such a man is unrewarded and his prayer futile, since
he is practicing both to win praise. A vainglorious ascetic doubly cheats
himself, wearying his body and getting no reward. Who would not laugh at this
vainglorious worker, standing for the psalms and moved by vainglory sometimes to
laughter and sometimes to tears for all to see?
The Lord frequently hides from us even the perfections we have
obtained. But the man who praises us, or, rather, who misleads us, opens our
eyes with his words and once our eyes are opened our treasures vanish.
The flatterer is a servant of the devils, a teacher of pride,
the destroyer of contrition, a ruiner of virtues, a perverse guide. The prophet
says this, "Those who honor you deceive you" (Isa. 3:12).
Men of high spirit endure offense nobly and willingly. But only
the holy and the saintly can pass unscathed through praise. And I have seen men
in mourning who, on being praised, reared up in anger, one passion giving way to
another as at some public meeting.
"No one knows the thoughts of a man except the spirit within
him" (1 Cor. 2:11). Hence those who want to praise us to our face should be
ashamed and silent.
When you hear that your neighbor or your friend has denounced
you behind your back or indeed in your presence, show him love and try to
compliment him.
It is a great achievement to shrug the praise of men off one's
soul. Greater still is to reject the praise of demons.
It is not the self-critical who reveals his humility (for does
not everyone have somehow to put up with himself?). Rather it is the man who
continues to love the person who has criticized him.
I have seen the demon of vainglory suggesting thoughts to one
brother, revealing them to another, and getting the second man to tell the first
what he is thinking and then praising him for his ability to read minds. And
that dreadful demon has even lighted on parts of the body, shaking and stirring
them.
Ignore him when he tells you to accept the office of bishop or
abbot or teacher. It is hard to drive a dog from a butcher's counter.
When he notices that someone has achieved a measure of interior
calm, he immediately suggests to him the need to return from the desert to the
world, in order to save those who are perishing.
Ethiopians have one kind of appearance, statues another. So too
is it the case that the vainglory of those living in community is different from
that of those living in the desert.
Vainglory anticipates the arrival of guests from the outside
world. It prompts the more frivolous Christian to rush out to meet them, to fall
at their feet, to give the appearance of humility, when in fact he is full of
pride. It makes him look and sound modest and directs his eye to the visitors'
hands in the hope of getting something from them. It induces him to address them
as "lords and patrons, graced with godly life." At table it makes him urge
abstinence on someone else and fiercely criticize subordinates. It enables those
who are standing in a slovenly manner during the singing of psalms to make an
effort, those who have no voice to sing well, and those who are sleepy to wake
up. It flatters the presenter, seeks the first place in the choir, and addresses
him as father and master while the visitors are still there.
Vainglory induces pride in the favored and resentment in those
who are slighted. Often it causes dishonor instead of honor, because it brings
great shame to its angry disciples. It makes the quick-tempered look mild before
men. It thrives amid talent and frequently brings catastrophe on those enslaved
to it.
I have seen a demon harm and chase away its own brother. For
just when a brother had lost his temper secular visitors arrived, and the
wretched man gave himself over to vainglory. He was unable to serve two passions
at the one time.
The servant of vainglory leads a double life. To outward
appearance, he lives with Christians; but in his heart of hearts he is in the
world.
If we really long for heavenly things, we will surely taste the
glory above. And whoever has tasted that will think nothing of earthly glory.
For it would surprise me if someone could hold the latter in contempt unless he
had tasted the former.
It often happens that having been left naked by vainglory, we
turn around and strip it ourselves more cleverly. For I have encountered some
who embarked on the spiritual life out of vainglory, making therefore a bad
start, and yet they finished up in a most admirable way because they changed
their intentions.
A man who takes pride in natural abilities-I mean cleverness,
the ability to learn, skill in reading, good diction, quick grasp, and all such
skills as we possess without having to work for them--this man, I say, will
never receive the blessings of heaven, since the man who is unfaithful in little
is unfaithful and vainglorious in much. And there are men who wear out their
bodies to no purpose in the pursuit of total dispassion, heavenly treasures,
miracle working, and prophetic ability, and the poor fools do not realize that
humility, not hard work, is the mother of such things. The man who seeks a
reward from God in return for his labors builds on uncertainty, whereas the man
who considers himself a debtor will receive sudden and unexpected riches.
When the winnower tells you to show off your virtues for the
benefit of an audience, do not yield to him. "What shall it profit a man to gain
the whole world and destroy himself?" (Matt. 16:26).
Our neighbor is moved by nothing so much as by a sincere and
humble way of talking and of behaving. It is an example and a spur to others
never to become proud. And there is nothing to equal the benefit of this.
A man of insight told me this: "I was once sitting at an
assembly," he said. "The demon of vainglory and the demon of pride came to sit
on either side of me. One poked me with the finger of vainglory and encouraged
me to talk publicly about some vision or labor of mine in the desert. I shook
him off with the words, 'Let those who wish me harm be driven back and let them
be ashamed' (Ps. 39:15). Then the demon on my left at once said in my ear, 'Well
done! Well done! You have become great by conquering my shameless mother.'
Turning to him I answered appropriately, making use of the rest of the verse,
'Defeat and shame on all who say, "Well done! Well done!" "And how is it, I
asked him, that vainglory is the mother of pride?" His answer was this, "Praise
exalts and puffs me up, and when the soul is exalted, pride lifts it up as high
as heaven-and then throws it down into the abyss."
But there is a glory that comes from the Lord, for He says, "I
will glorify those who glorify Me" (I Kings [I Sam.] 2:30). And there is a glory
that follows it which is contrived by the demons, for it is said, "Woe to you
when all men shall speak well of you" (Luke 6:26). You can recognize the first
kind of glory when you look on it as dangerous and run from it in every possible
way, hiding your life-style wherever you are. And you may be certain of the
other sort when you find yourself doing something, however small, with the hope
that men may notice you.
Dread vainglory urges us to pretend that we have some virtue
which does not belong to us. It encourages us with the text, "Let your light so
shine before men that they will see your good deeds" (Matt. 5:16).
The Lord often humbles the vainglorious by causing some
dishonor to befall them. And indeed the first step in overcoming vainglory is to
remain silent and to accept dishonor gladly. The middle stage is to restrain
every act of vainglory while it is still in thought. The end - insofar as one
may talk of an end to an abyss - is to be able to accept humiliation before
others without actually feeling it.
Do not conceal your sin because of the idea that you must not
scandalize your neighbor. Of course this injunction must not be adhered to
blindly. It will depend on the nature of one's sinfulness.
If ever we seek glory, if it comes our way uninvited, or if we
plan some course of action because of our vainglory, we should think of our
mourning and of the blessed fear on us as we stood alone in prayer before God.
If we do this we will assuredly outflank shameless vainglory, that is if our
wish for true prayer is genuine. If this is insufficient let us briefly remember
that we must die. Should this also prove ineffective, let us at least go in fear
of the shame that always comes after honor, for assuredly he who exalts himself
will be humbled not only there but here also.
When those who praise us, or, rather, those who lead us astray,
begin to exalt us, we should briefly remember the multitude of our sins, and in
this way we will discover that we do not deserve whatever is said or done in our
honor.
Some of the prayers of the vainglorious no doubt deserve to win
the attention of God, but He regularly anticipates their wishes and petitions so
that their pride may not be increased by the success of their prayers.
Simpler people do not usually succumb to the poison of
vainglory, which is, after all, a loss of simplicity and a hypocritical way of
life.
A worm, fully grown, often sprouts wings and can fly up high.
Vainglory, fully grown, can give birth to pride, which is the beginning and the
end of all evil.
Anyone free of this sickness is close to salvation. Anyone
affected by it is far removed from the glory of the saints.
Such, then, is the twenty-second step. The man untouched by
vainglory will not tumble into that senseless pride which is so detestable to
God.
7 Deadly Sins: VainGlory
Pride is a denial of God, an invention of the devil, contempt
for men. It is the mother of condemnation, the offspring of praise, a sign of
barrenness. It is a flight from God's help, the precursor of madness, the cause
of downfall. It is the cause of satanic possession, the source of anger, the
gateway of hypocrisy. It is the fortress of demons, the guardian of sins, the
source of hardheartedness. It is the denial of compassion, a bitter Pharisee, a
cruel judge. It is the foe of God. It is the root of blasphemy.
Pride begins where vainglory leaves off. Its midpoint comes
with the humiliation of our neighbor, the shameless parading of our
achievements, complacency, and unwillingness to be found out. It ends with the
spurning of God's help, the exalting of one's own efforts and a devilish
disposition.
Listen, therefore, all who wish to avoid this pit. This passion
often draws strength initially from the giving of thanks, and at first it does
not shamelessly urge us to renounce God. I have seen people who speak aloud
their thanks to God but who in their hearts are glorifying themselves, something
demonstrated by that Pharisee with his "O God, I thank You" (Luke 18:11).
Pride takes up residence wherever we have lapsed, for a lapse
is in fact an indication of pride. And an admirable man said once to me, "Think
of a dozen shameful passions. Love one of them, I mean pride, and it will take
up the space of all the other eleven."
A proud Christian argues bitterly with others. The humble
Christian is loath to contradict them.
The cypress tree does not bend to the ground to walk, nor does
the haughty Christian bend down in order to gain obedience.
The proud man wants to be in charge of things. He would feel
lost otherwise.
"God resists the proud" (James 4:6). Who then could have mercy
on them? Before God every proud man is unclean. Who then could purify such a
person?
For the proud correction is a fall, a thorn (cf. 2 Cor. 12:7)
is a devil, and abandonment by God is madness. Whereas in the first two
instances there are human cures available, this last cannot be healed by
man.
To reject criticism is to show pride, while to accept it is to
show oneself free of this fetter.
Pride and nothing else caused an angel to fall from heaven. And
so one may reasonably ask whether one may reach heaven by humility alone without
the help of any other virtue.
Pride loses the profits of all hard work and sweat. They cried
out, but there was none to save them, because they cried out with pride. They
cried out to God, but He paid no heed since they were not really trying to root
out the faults against which they were praying.
An elder, very experienced in these matters, once spiritually
admonished a proud brother who said in his blindness, "Forgive me, father, but I
am not proud." "My son," said the wise old man, "what better proof of your pride
could you have given than to claim that you were not proud?"
A help to the proud is submissiveness, a tougher and humbler
way of life, and the reading of the supernatural feats of the Fathers. Even then
there will perhaps be little hope of salvation for those who suffer from this
disease.
While it is disgraceful to be puffed up over the adornments of
others, it is sheer lunacy to imagine that one has deserved the gifts of God.
You may be proud only of the achievements you had before the time of your birth.
But anything after that, indeed the birth itself, is a gift from God. You may
claim only those virtues in you that are there independently of your mind, for
your mind was bestowed on you by God. And you may claim only those victories you
achieved independently of the body, for the body too is not yours but a work of
God.
Do not be self-confident before judgment has been passed on
you. Remember the guest at the marriage feast. He got there, and then, tied hand
and foot, he was thrown into the dark outside (cf. Matt. 22:13). So do not be
stiff-necked, since you are a material being. Many although holy and
unencumbered by a body were cast out of Heaven.
When the demon of pride gets a foothold for himself among his
own servants, he appears to them, in sleep or awake, and he looks like a holy
angel or martyr and he hints at mysteries to be revealed or spiritual gifts to
be granted, that the wretches may be deceived and driven utterly out of their
minds.
If we were to die ten thousand times for Christ, we would still
not have repaid what we owe, for in value rather than physical substance there
is no comparison between the blood of God and that of His servants.
We should always be on the lookout to compare ourselves with
the Fathers and the lights who have gone before us. If we do, we will discover
that we have scarcely begun the ascetic life, that we have hardly kept our vow
in a holy manner, and that our thinking is still rooted in the world.
A real Christian is one whose soul's eye is not haughty and
whose bodily senses are unmoved.
A Christian is one who fights his enemies, like the wild beasts
that they are, and harries them as he makes his escape from them.
To be a Christian is to know ecstasy without end and to grieve
for life.
A Christian is shaped by virtues in the way that others are
shaped by pleasures.
A Christian has an unfailing light in the eye of the heart.
A Christian is an abyss of humility in which every evil spirit
has been plunged and smothered.
Pride makes us forget our sins, for the remembrance of them
leads to humility.
Pride is utter poverty of soul disguised as riches, imaginary
light where in fact there is darkness. This abominable vice not only stops our
progress but even tosses us down from the heights we have reached.
The proud man is a pomegranate, rotten within, while outwardly
radiant.
A proud Christian needs no demon. He has turned into one, an
enemy to himself.
Darkness is alien to light. Pride is alien to every virtue.
Blaspheming words rise up in the hearts of the proud, heavenly
visions in the hearts of the humble.
A thief hates the sun. A proud man despises the meek.
It happens, I do not know how, that most of the proud never
really discover their true selves. They think they have conquered their passions
and they find out how poor they really are only after they die.
The man ensnared by pride will need God's help, since man is of
no use to him.
I captured this senseless deceiver once. It was rising up in my
heart and on its shoulders was vainglory, its mother. I roped them with the
noose of obedience and flailed them with the whip of humility. Then I lashed
them and asked how they had managed to gain access to me. "We have no beginning
and no birth," they said, "for we are the source and the begetters of all the
passions. The strongest opposition to us comes from the contrition of heart that
grows out of obedience. We can endure no authority over us, which is why we fell
from heaven though we had authority there. In short, we are the authors and the
progenitors of everything opposed to humility, for everything that favors
humility brings us low. We prevail everywhere except in heaven. So, then, where
will you run to escape us? You will find us often where there is patient
endurance of dishonor, where there is obedience and freedom from anger, where
there is willingness to bear no grudge, where one's neighbor is served. And our
children are the falls of those who lead the life of the spirit. Their names:
Anger, Calumny, Spite, Irritability, Shouting, Blasphemy, Hypocrisy, Hatred,
Envy, Argumentativeness, Self-will, Disobedience.
"There is only one thing with which we cannot interfere, and
the violence you do us will make us admit what this is. If you can honestly
condemn yourself before the Lord, then indeed you will find us as flimsy as a
cobweb. For, you see, Vainglory is pride's saddle-horse on which I am mounted.
But holy Humility and Self-accusation will laugh at the horse and its rider and
will joyfully sing the song of triumph: 'Let us sing to the Lord, for He has
been truly glorified. Horse and rider He has thrown into the sea' (Exod. 15:1),
into the depths of humility."
Such is the twenty-third step. Whoever climbs it, if indeed
anyone can, will certainly be strong.
7 Deadly Sins: Pride
Concerning unspeakably blasphemous
Thoughts
As we have already heard, from a troublesome root and mother
comes a most troublesome offspring. What I mean is that unspeakable blasphemy is
the child of dreadful pride. Hence the need to talk about it, since it is no
ordinary foe but is far and away the deadliest enemy of all. Worse still, it is
extremely hard to articulate and to confess it and therefore to discuss it with
a spiritual healer, and the result has been to cause frustration and despair in
many people, for like a worm in a tree this unholy enemy gnaws away all
hope.
This atrocious foe has the habit of appearing during the holy
services and even at the awesome hour of the Mysteries, and blaspheming the Lord
and the consecrated elements, thereby showing that these unspeakable,
unacceptable, and unthinkable words are not ours but rather those of the
God-hating demon who fled from heaven because, it seems, of the blasphemies he
uttered there too against the Lord. It must be so, for if these dreadful and
unholy words are my own, how could I offer humble worship after having partaken
of the sacred gift? How could I revile and praise at the same time?
This deceiver, this destroyer of souls, has often caused men to
go mad. And no other thought is as difficult to admit in confession, which is
why so many are dogged by it all their days. In fact nothing gives demons and
evil thoughts such power over us as to nourish them and hide them in our hearts
unconfessed.
If you have blasphemous thoughts, do not think that you are to
blame. God knows what is in our hearts and He knows that ideas of this kind come
not from us but from our enemies.
Drunkenness leads to stumbling. Pride leads to unholy thoughts.
The drunkard will be punished not for his stumbling but for his drunkenness.
Those unclean and unspeakable thoughts come at us when we are
praying, but, if we continue to pray to the end, they will retreat, for they do
not struggle against those who resist them.
This unholy demon not only blasphemes God and everything that
is divine. It stirs up the dirtiest and most obscene thoughts within us, thereby
trying to force us to give up praying or to fall into despair. It stops the
prayer of many and turns many away from the holy Mysteries. It has evilly and
tyrannously wearied the bodies of some with grief. It has exhausted others with
fasting and has given them no rest. It has struck at people living in the world,
and also at those leading the monastic life, whispering that there is no
salvation in store for them, murmuring that they are more to be pitied than any
unbeliever or pagan.
Anyone disturbed by the spirit of blasphemy and wishing to be
rid of it should bear in mind that thoughts of this type do not originate in his
own soul but are caused by that unclean devil who once said to the Lord, "I will
give you all this if only You fall down and adore me" (Matt. 4:9). So let us
make light of him and pay no regard whatever to his promptings. Let us say, 'Get
behind me, Satan! I will worship the Lord my God and I will serve only Him'
(Matt. 4:10). May your word and your effort rebound on you, and your blasphemies
come down on your own head now and in the world to come." To fight against the
demon of blasphemy in any way other than this is to be like a man trying to hold
lightning in his hands. For how can you take a grip on, seize, or grapple with
someone who flits into the heart quicker than the wind, talks more rapidly than
a flash, and then immediately vanishes? Every other kind of foe stops, struggles
a while, lingers and gives one time to struggle with him. But not this one. He
hardly appears and is gone again immediately. He barely speaks and then
vanishes.
This particular demon likes to take up residence in the minds
of simpler and more innocent souls, and these are more upset and disturbed by it
than others. To such people we could quite rightly say that what is happening to
them is due not to their own undue self-esteem but to the jealousy of the
demons.
Let us refrain from passing judgment or condemnation on our
neighbor. If we do, then we will not be terrorized by blasphemous thoughts,
since the one produces the other.
The situation here is like that of someone shut up in his own
house who overhears but does not join in the conversation of passersby. The soul
that keeps to itself overhears and is disturbed by the blasphemies of devils who
are merely transients.
Hold this foe in contempt and you will be liberated from its
torments. Try cleverly to fight it and you will end up by surrendering, for the
man who tries to conquer spirits by talk is like someone hoping to lock up the
winds.
There was once a zealous monk who was badly troubled by this
demon. For twenty years he wore himself out with fasting and vigils, but to no
avail, as he realized. So he wrote the temptation on a sheet of paper, went to a
certain holy man, handed him the paper, bowed his face to the ground and dared
not to look up. The old man read it, smiled, lifted the brother and said to him,
"My son, put your hand on my neck." The brother did so. Then the great man said,
"Very well, brother. Now let this sin be on my neck for as many years as it has
been or will be active within you. But from now on, ignore it." And the monk who
had been tempted in this fashion assured me that even before he had left the
cell of this old man, his infirmity was gone. The man who had actually
experienced this told me about it, giving thanks to Christ.
He who has defeated this vice has banished pride.
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