From Manager to “Managed”
Eric Gajewski
Looking back on my own journey I
seen the hand of God at every step albeit painful at times. I was a on the road to nowhere really fast
thinking I was doing as God intended. I switched
majors Sophomore year in college and decided “business” was the way to go. It led me to pursue titles, mammon and
women. I am grateful for those days of
study but never knew how dark the days ahead would become due to my selfishness. Perhaps, some of you have a similar story? I went from being manager to be “managed”,
that is, by God. How difficult it was
for someone to be in control of everything to now being in charge of nothing
and letting God’s will be done. On a microcosm
level it summarizes the spiritual life from “self” to the Sacred Heart.
Controlling everything does not
indicate true happiness. I thought I was
happy at the time but of course I was not.
I was pursuing my dreams not God’s.
He allowed me to see what I would become and what I became was truly a
monster. I became attached to many
worldly things and my heart would not rest.
Many have this thought that if everything goes there way they can be
happy. The reality is that true
happiness comes from making Jesus happy and what the self wants as opposed to
the Sacred Heart are two different things altogether. Are you trying to help save souls? Do you make reparation unto His Heart? Do you spend ample time in prayer (solitude
and silence). Do you even know yourself
(self knowledge)? Or are you so
distracted by the business of the day that you still think you are happy until “your
world” begins to collapse. Job
understood all things were God’s and when the appointed time came God restored
all things unto him and then some for being faithful. How will it be for you in the upcoming
tribulation?
Pride wants to control and
manipulate. If we wait then on Gods time
will we see why something was not good for us (our souls). Pride causes impatience. We want to be in control in our fallen human
nature, however, God, has a much higher seat and is the one truly in
control. Do you find yourself trying to
control every little detail? This is not
a good thing. Now, I am not suggesting
that there be no order and structure but when we arrive at the point that we
are having anxiety over the littlest things then we know we got a problem. The devils, full of self, want to control
humanity (aka the New World Order).
Through Christ we have true freedom and liberty but what is being sold
now by the politicians and church hierarchy is truly void of God’s Plan. This is why Our Lady at Fatima was trying to
warn us! Don’t “swim” with the majority
these days brethren.
“Only those who do My Will…” It is quite frightening to hear Our Lord say
that there will be souls who performed miracles (and had other gifts) who will
lose their souls. Why? They didn’t stick to the Plan (aka His
Will). We must cautiously discern everyday
doing God’s Will. Christ, showed what
lengths are done to be obedient to the Father’s Will. It is painful to move from self to resting
solely in His Sacred heart. It requires
we lose all things at heart for His sake.
Yet, we are secure for if we have God with us who can be against
us? Let us all pray that we grow in
holiness and continue to discern God’s Will
for sometimes we think we are doing God’s Will but are only truly
serving ourselves and hell. In the end,
much like my former career, we, must all move from “manager” to being “managed”. The devils did not want to do this and they
revolted now how about you?
