The Darkness of Doubt

The Darkness of Doubt

Eric Gajewski 

Matthew 14:31
And immediately Jesus stretching forth his hand took hold of him, and said to him: O thou of little faith, why didst thou doubt?

Fear or Faith? Fright or Flight?

 Romans 14:22- Hast thou faith? Have it to thyself before God. 

“A day will come when the civilized world will deny its God, when the Church will doubt as Peter doubted. She will be tempted to believe that man has become God. In our churches, Christians will search in vain for the red lamp where God awaits them. Like Mary Magdalene, weeping before the empty tomb, they will ask, ‘Where have they taken Him?"
Pope Pius XII 

Brothers and Sisters I write to you in the Selfless Love and peace of the Union and Marriage of Jesus Christ and of His Heart and all the blessings that flow forth from it. As we further prepare to receive Jesus daily into our hearts, let us pause to reflect upon the advent of antichrist, which we call Vatican II. There is no doubt at all that the antichrist is being prepared both in the world and in the Vatican and the Second Vatican Council was the "new throne" by which man now sits upon and teaches by.  We look ahead and we know the times will be tough but sadly how many will lose their Faith altogether.  Yet the Great Test or Great Storm coming is meant only to further solidify Faith and the other virtues, therefore, do not despair and doubt as the world does.  

Why will men doubt in the times ahead?  Ask yourself this question. The enemies of God (using the Catholic name) continue to build up their New Religion and "Order" and the faithful are further tempted to think there is no human solution to this problem and for good reason.  Yet who can doubt the Blessed Virgin Mary who first exclaimed "Fiat" and it was done? Do we now doubt that She lied at Fatima? Or does not her promise still stand and evoke Hope for the future of humanity?  An eagle spreads his wings in Faith and Hope! Yet a "young eaglet" or a  wounded eagle, not willing to spread his wings, due to doubt, will always be relegated to the cliffs, when he was meant to soar in the skies!  Do you not get it now?  The coming great chastisements are opportunities for us to become Saints of God.  For us to grow in virtue by staying close to Our Mother.  What good are these wings if you do not spread them?  We must exercise our virtue daily even as an eagle physically exercises his wings....

 “Since Christ Himself has said, “This is My Body” who shall dare to doubt that It is His Body?” 

St. Cyril of Jerusalem

It truly takes "little faith" to believe in a God who cannot fail.  Think about it.  The God of heaven who flung the stars up against the backdrop of the night; the God who created "something" out of "nothing" now all of sudden "doesn't know what He is doing or allowing?"  This is absurd and highly offensive to God to suggest such.  God has the Highest Seat He knows all things centuries before they even happen and we are to suggest God is "two steps behind"?  He is already preparing the way now for the Triumph of His Church yet the blind go looking all over when what is "the way" is right there in front of him.  You look but you do not see; you listen but you do not hear.  God takes that which seems to harm or destroy and will use it for His greater glory.  The same God who used pagan Rome as a platform for His Church will soon use France & Russia as catalysts toward true peace in the world and restoration of His Church.  

 Do you desire security? Here you have it. The Lord says to you, "I will never abandon you, I will always be with you." If a good man made you such a promise, you would trust him. God makes it, and do you doubt? Do you seek a support more sure than the word of God, which is infallible? Surely, He has made the promise, He has written it, He has pledged His word for it, it is most certain.

                                                          Saint Augustine

Ultimately doubt is the result of the "hideous self" which rises up in a man. Reflect upon it.  How many times have I heard in my ministry working with prostitutes and escorts "I do have Faith..."  Then I ask them " ...then why do you sell yourself to put food on the table?"  And then the phone hangs up....It is because "the many" think they possess something they truly do not have.  Using evil to achieve an end which is good is still evil.  Assuredly, God has a plan to provide the basics necessities of life and yet why do these girls (and many) take that opportunity away from God to be the Provider?  It is because they don't have Faith; it is because they cannot see a "better way" and ultimately make evil choices as a result of this self which impedes the Divine Plan. People do not want to be humbled they want to stay in control and thus when God causes all disorder in the world on EVERY level this will cause mankind to panic. Self wants to be in control.  Yet the Sacred Heart is sadly competing for every beat of thy heart.  His Ways are not ours and it is simply "too much" to give up all control to a loving and merciful God! Or is it?.....The result of self is fear, worry, panic, manipulation, anxiety and doubt and all of these descriptors are due to our own shortcomings. WE DO NOT WANT TO GIVE UP CONTROL! Yet we are truly only living in Christ once we first hand over everything to Christ.  We must hand Him our hearts, our homes, our health and all that we think is "ours" but in reality is ALL "His". 

Doubt breeds and brings in the darkness. Watch and see. When Islam and the enemies of the Church surround the Faithful, close down our buildings and massacre the many do you honestly think at first the majority will respond in grace or give into doubt?  This is why the message of Fatima is so important because it IS the message of Faith and Hope for the Church and ultimately humanity.  At first, as men, are watching these horrible atrocities, on a nightly basis, they will choose the law of the jungle.  Men will concede to self not seeing any other solution and blood will pour out into the streets in frightening fashion. God will allow the world to see the catastrophic results of a Society which now is fully run on Self. A society which proudly exclaims liberty and equality as they are hunting down their neighbors and anything else they can get their hands on in a "blind rage".  Indeed that day is coming where it will be "Black Friday" out in the streets every day.  No order, no structure just a bunch of individual interior prisoners all falsely crusading under the banner of Self who have caved into doubt. 

When we doubt Our Lady we truly doubt Christ and when we doubt Christ the "interior light" begins to fade.  Thus, men wilst grow more and more carnal because they cannot see or think straight anymore (already started).  The New Mass has doubtful validity (objectively speaking), therefore, the New Mass is preparing the way for the Darkness itself.  It does not lead to true Faith it only can potentially rob it! The Modernists New Mass is a representation of their new faith.  The next step is simply to remove the true Holy Mass altogether and thus the "dogma of Faith will be lost".  It is true, only eagles will survive the times ahead but sadly "the many" will still choose the cliffs in doubt rather than choosing the skies in Faith. So what do you choose? Fear or Faith? Fright or Flight? May thee Immaculate Heart of Our Lady guide, protect and guard your heart everyday in this exile, Ave Maria – Amen.